Last week I was working on chapter 26 in the book of Matthew and a couple of verses within that text pressed on me the need to share a past lesson the Lord taught me about staying awake when it matters the most...when I am praying.
"Then He came to the disciples and found them sleeping, and said to Peter, 'What? Could you not watch with Me one hour? Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.'" Matthew 26: 40 and 41
I have to admit, for the longest time I could never stay awake or focus when I prayed. Not that I did not understand the great privilege I had in conversing face to face with my Lord and Savior. Nor, that I found this time boring or dull. It just seemed to me that my human nature was very weak and vulnerable during my dedicated time with the Lord and the enemy was hard at work to make sure I did not succeed in my pursuit.
Praying for the Lord to protect that time and to protect my mind from straying, did help a bit, but I still found myself more frustrated than not as I pursued to know Jesus during my prayer time. But this all changed when I started keeping a prayer journal. My first journal marked the turning point in my daily walk with the Lord and in my relationship with Him.
And even thought the journal was a turning point, even to this day there are still times when my prayer resistant nature fights against me...still struggling with nodding off when writing...and still dealing with a weak mind that wanders off onto many rabbit trails...but at least I can read back in my journal to where my writing left off and pick up and keep going.
Keeping a prayer journal for me is a way to combat my flesh and I am thankful the Lord led me to that discovery. But even so, I look forward to the day when no one will struggle against human flesh to worship perfectly in spirit and truth. At that appointed time we will be able to fellowship with Jesus from within a perfected spirit because He came to this earth as a baby and then obediently lived so He could die on a cross to save mankind.
"Thanks be to God for His indescribable gift!" 2 Corinthians 9:15Merry Christmas!